So I'm going to South Padre.  In less than a week.  I find out about Student Life tomorrow (ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!).  I also have two tests this week.  And after spring break.  And two papers that need to be written.  And about 50 loads of laundry.  And just so much I legitimately need to do.

One of the hardest things ever for me to do is relax.  It's so difficult to push my ever-growing to do list out of my mind and be still and rest.  I'm a special ed major- it's what I've wanted to do since around fifth grade.  During my senior year of high school, I would go down to the Life Skills (special ed for all you non-Texans) room when I would get too stressed out.  I would finger paint, talk, laugh, read, or do whatever those kids wanted me to do.  It was a good reminder of what I was working towards.  I would calm down and go back to studying for AP exams or whatever I had going on that day.  I wish so desperately I could do this now.  I realize that I'm so fortunate to be able to get an education and that it will actually help and pertain to what I'll be doing for the rest of my life.  But more than anything, I want to be back in the Mother Teresa's home or safehouse in India, or House of Hope in Nicaragua.  I literally left my heart there.  My joy and fulfillment come from the Lord, but it's so hard being at a point where I know what I'm supposed to do and being told to wait to do it.  I'm not a very patient person.

I don't have anything really important to say today.  I'm listening to sad music (holla TSwizzle) and eating cookies.  I'm just homesick for places that I've only spent fractions of fractions of my life.  I'm longing for God to tell me to stop waiting and get to it.  Here are the pictures that are holding me over.